Through this traveling journey that I have been on for the last 7 months, I’ve had to rely heavily on my trust and faith in the unknown. When I was in my comfort zone at home, surrounded by family and friends, thinking I had my life perfectly planned, I wasn’t as challenged to trust the unknown. However, that has all changed on this trip now that I’m on the path of going with the flow and being led to the next step.
Most recently, I had an opportunity to teach yoga in Costa Rica. It seemed like the right thing to do and like something I would enjoy and love, but something didn’t feel right about it. My gut instincts were telling me it wasn’t right, but since traveling to Costa Rica was planned, I tried to ignore my feelings telling me the opposite. I have been told several times to trust my gut and listen to my instincts and intuitions but, “What if my instincts were wrong? What if I’m the person who should do the exact opposite of what their instincts are telling them to do?” These thoughts and others ran through my mind quite a lot as I battled internally about what the right decision was. Eventually I let go of right versus wrong and realized that I knew the answer of what I should do all along. I was being led in a different direction even though I didn’t have a backup plan.
“There is a voice that doesn’t use words. Listen.” – Rumi
I traveled to a friend’s house in The Netherlands where I could quiet my mind and take some time to figure out what I wanted to do next. I went to an amazing yoga class and returned home to continue meditation when I had the urge to read Iyanla Vanzant, one of my favorite inspirational authors & personalities who always has so much wisdom to share. The first post I saw she shared was the following:
Trusting the process was not a new concept for me, but something I needed to be reminded of. The decision on whether I should go to Costa Rica was so much bigger than just that. The decision was about trust. Trusting in myself, trusting in my instincts, and trusting in the process. In that moment, I realized that not knowing what would come next was not a determining factor in what I should do next. The determining factor in what I should do next was my gut instincts and trusting in the process.
I finally made the decision forgo Costa Rica and trust my instincts and the process. Since then I have traveled to London and have been here for the past 3 weeks. Not only have I been able to enjoy this city in a new way, but I’ve been fortunate enough to meetup with friends I haven’t seen in years (one dating back to high school!). I didn’t realize how isolating solo backpacking could be, and being in London has been like a reunion tour I didn’t know I needed. Seeing friends and being in high spirits inspired me to finish designing and to publish my Pocket Guide To Wellness which I had been putting off for quite a while.
I’m not sure if I was supposed to stay in London to see friends, to finish my guide, or for other reasons, but I understand that this was and is all a part of the process.
Just like in yoga, we practice the poses, learn the teachings, and work with incorporating meditation into our life, trusting that the process will enrich our lives. Initially, we may not understand how stretching could do anything to help us besides physically, but with time we see the benefits unfold in our life.
I was recently accepted to volunteer and live at a Meditation Center in North West England for the month of October. Even though I’ve been working with mediation for a few years, I still have so much to learn and know that this will be the perfect opportunity to do that. If I would have left, I may have not gotten the chance to do this and I feel grateful that I will be able to do this. I hope to learn more about meditation so that I can share with you, this community, and future yoga students I will have in class.
Trusting in the unknown or things you can’t see is not easy, but when you understand that there is something bigger at work and that your instincts are there to guide you, trusting becomes easier. Trusting yourself and trusting the process to unfold the way it should even if you can’t see exactly how it will all work out! 🙂